| teenage angst | Wednesday, January 15, 2003 |
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11:14 pm
My dad up until maybe a year or two ago has always seemed like a reasonable man to me. In the recent
year or so however I feel that his reasons for (trying to) taking away my and my brother's source of entertainment,
relaxation, and interest is becoming old and not fit to who we are today. This disturbs me more than
anything else about how he thinks we should act, that it is based on who we were maybe two or so years
ago, not who we are now. Perhaps his estimation of me is still rather close dispite being a year or
two old. It makes me happy to have time to myself for going online or working on web ralated things
or drawing. Perhaps I do do too much of it for his comfort. But his ideas of how my brother think
and act are completely intolerable to me. He claims that my brother is playing too many videogames,
that he sacrafices all his spare time to think, read, do, live videogames. I know he may have been
like that two years ago but he is a far different person now and my dad doesn't see it. My brother
is the most diligent and hardworking person I know. He spends hours on his homework making sure that
everything is finished before he even thinks to touch the systems. His brain has not degraded to mush
as my dad seems to believe. He is good with stratigic and creative thinking, he has proven to be
very good at writing, and he is also strong in art. My father never sees these things, or proofs of them
because my brother isn't winning awards every year. He doesn't notice the hours my brother spends
on writing out his thoughts or ideas, he doesn't notice the effort he puts in to completing his pictures.
Dad is seeing that he is spending hours and hours on videogames, when he is obviously (at least to him and
me) not. He doesn't believe us when we tell him we are perfectly conscious of the time we take
to do things. And this, I find almost intolerable. I can understand his estimation of me, it's not that
far from the truth, but to be put in the position to know what my brother is really like and how my
dad sees him is maddening. Really I doubt this will be resolved anytime soon since it started a while
ago when we changed and he didn't see it, but I just felt like writing it down for once. It's a
teenage thing, I suppose, to not be understood by your parents. I'm sure most people have
had problems like this before so I'm not expecting any sort of response or anything. Lol, writing
this out was comfort enough.
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| *sets homework aflame* | Monday, January 13, 2003 |
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10:23 pm
Still no actual new art but I was digging around just now and found
THIS. A pic I did last October of Firth and Ephrael being rather out of character apparently, seeing
as I named it oocness. *snrk* It's cute though, but it looks like I gave up of Ephie's hand, lol.
=o_o= It's nice to find slightly old doodles that you forgot about.
Kitteh: Lol, it's funny but that's exactly what I mean XB. A couple years ago there were a
couple really big impromanga sites and now they are all very much inactive an dead. It makes me worry
if my website won't be able to get anywhere... =9_9= I'm probalby gonna have to promote it like crazy
and leave the link everywhere XBBB.
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| =DD I LEARN STOICHIOMETRY | Sunday, January 12, 2003 |
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10:06 pm
=o_o= I got the urge recently to restart my SAImpro
project too. Click on that link to go check out the super unfinished site =9_9=. I'm hoping to get some
feedback and suggestions for what I should put on the pages. There is going to be a main page pic
and probably an entrance page but those aren't ready yet either... Unfortunately you'll have to use the
back button to get back to the main page though, since the link to the main on each page goes to index.htm
which is not the main page at the moment. =D Anyone that has time to spare to draw an impromanga or
doujin is also welcome.... although that was suppose to be the first contest =9_9= meh. I also have
a problem with forms... Anybody know anybody that could help me write some programing language things??
So that I can make the forms send info directly from the page to a file in my site account instead of
having it go through people's e-mails (I think I want to do it with cgi?). Well if anyone's willing
to help, help is very much welcome. If not I suppose I could provide instructions for setting up a
default e-mail on the brower or whatever it is...
Ah, I just hope impromanga aren't so "out" that no one submits stuff to SAImpro...
Kitteh: =B Ohayocon? I think that's what it's called. =o_o= The one that Del recently went to.
Perhaps Ohio is close enough for you to be allowed to go to that con =D? I heard somewhere that it
was new.. but I'm not sure =o_o=
Ruaki: =D yeeey! Thanks for tips and stuff! Gawd I want a trip to Japan =*__*= that would be SO
good. =o_o= huu, USAnime sounds familier. ....And about you're gift... =@_x;; uhm.... Well you see,
the thing is... it's not done yet =D;; *bricked* Lol, the lines of Sora and Riku are nearly done and
I still have to finish off the tree and color it and whatnot. I actually wanted to wait til I got
Spike's and Kitteh's gifts done since I don't have even sketches of thier intended gifts... =@_@= lol,
it's gonna be sad when I finish it and give it to you and say "MERRY CHRISTMAS!!" XB I bet it'll be
spring by then *IS SHOT*
Spike: *HUGS YUU* XB I should shower you with more random gifts! XB lol, but you should draw
Guy more often so I can draw Guy to give to you!!! *SHAKE* want spikey art. =D I did see something
new at elfwood. It was a couple days ago so I dun remember what it was called but I think it was a
dark haired elfguy without arms XB. I luv yer pencil sketchies *licks them*
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| Late night/super early morning escapades | Wednesday, January 8, 2003 |
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5:24 pm
And also, chibi chal, cause although chibis may seem easy,
they're really hard (for me anyway) to get to look right.
1:23 am
...Some days I'm just really hyper, and I say and do the most stupidest things =@_@;; it's really
embarrassing to remember what I was doing or to see what I wrote. Unfortunately I think I get
these hyper moments all too often, especially when I'm writing... =^^;; oh well, what can I do about
that.
I was just wandering though blogs and sites associated with the blogs today and for some reason I
got this nice bubblie feeling I get when I find new stuff. Since this is pretty much a direct response
to people's stuff... I'll just... =o_o= respond to people.
Del: =P Well, the comments seem to be almost working again! You are certainly getting comments
but they aren't staying on the page that opens when you click on the comment link =o_o=. I had that
problem too but I forgot how I fixed it =@_@;;; lol. Well, for now you can still just go to your account
to check what people said, even if no one else can see the comments (well, besides me). *pokee poke*
But now since you don't get online as often anymore it means you have to blog more! So you should do that
*dance* XB
Kitteh: First, a response to your comment. =3 I'm glad you comment as it is so it's okay to
not have much to say sometimes *cling* Second thing, I took a look at you're Elfwood gallery again and
I was amazed by the number of comments! Lol, how long have you had the galleries? About a week? *rollroll*
XDD AMAZING! Just want to congradulate you on that I guess, cause I have fun rifling through other people's
comments on things I'm familier with. =^o^= oh yah, and you got mod's choice, that's just crazy!
(which, I assure you, is a good thing XDDD).
Ruaki: DOUJIN*CLING*. I think you and Steph have the most mind bogglingly large collections
of doujin I've ever seen (not that I've seen that many..) When and how did you start up collecting
them? I want to start getting doujin but I have to order them through my dad =@_@;; and that just
will not happen. The only other way I might get doujin is at cons.. which I've proved to be rather
bad at.. but I think I still have time to work on that. Muh, anyway, just wondering how I should get
started, cause one day I want to trade something with you, since I've seen lots of doujin in your collection
that look interesting and that I want (and that will probably be gone by the time I have something to
trade... but whatever...) ....=o_o=... Did you say something about wanting Get Backers? Are you
talking about the manga? Or other things? Lol, this probably isn't the most wonderful place to put
this stuff since you might not see it, but here it is anyway =o_o=
I want to go to a con with someone that's gone to a lot of them and knows what kinds of stuff to
do and look for... Lol, I feel like such a newbie when I'm at a con, cause sure I wander around and
have fun, but I have no idea what's going on where and usually I find out I missed something interesting
after the con's over. *wonders what cons she may be allowed to go to this year*
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"What if Gollum and Dobby got in a fight?" | Monday, January 6, 2003 |
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3:31 pm
*pokes at the title of the entry* =P My brother said that yesterday cause we just finished watching
Two Towers the other day. *amused* I thought Gollum would win at first since he's the brutal, violent,
murderous type. But then I realized Dobby has magic, pretty strong magic from what I gather. XB *snrk*
so I think Dobby would be more defensive and Gollum offensive but they're generally a pretty even match.
*gets funny looks from people* =o__o= My brother started thinking about it, not me...
Only one pic to post (erh.. like usual =o_o=). I say I'm more likely to draw on a whim, and it's true =o_o=. Well, here's
Chal getting naked for ya =BBB *BRICKED* *cough* lol, well,
I dunno, it was a whim. I can't help what I think about, seriously. He's suppose to look a little more
angry, cause =o_o;; I guess he doesn't want his cloths off.. but yah. *stroke his legs* XB I like
them *is stabbed repeatedly*
Del: =3 click here to go to the comments thing. I tried
to take a look at it but I don't know how it works with pitas so I don't know if I could spot what's
wrong. =;;__;;= I hope it starts working soon! =B And dun worry, I was barely online at all last
week. BTW *huggles yuu* lumly pics. =B the evil angely boi is lovely. The coloring is like... flashy
=o_o= only not in the icky gaudy sense... more like... it reminds me of... flashes of light I guess =o_o;;....
'n rain is pretty!
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| Four-Eyes is my hero *snrk* | Friday, January 3, 2003 |
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11:49 pm
And with that I would like to apoligize to all the people that haven't recieved thier Christmas gifts =__=;;.
Seeing as break is now pretty much over and I have to start working again I doubt very much the gifts
will be given anytime this week...or the next... and possibly even the next =@_@;;; Uhgsd... Anyway,
do not despair! For even if I do not finish today, or the next day...or the next... =@_@;; I really will
finish eventually...
Kitteh: =P lol, Vlad is a rather sexy name, yes. And you know, =o_o= that's twice in one
day I have been told that I draw cute noses. XDD. And the people facing left is a right handed
thing I guess, since you had it too. =o_o= I rarely draw people facing forward when I doodle now
though, what's that from I wonder?
Del: =;;__;;= *pets del* Evil Fulan, I hope maybe it works again for you soon. My dad did something
to it today. I don't know if it'll help you at all but I hope it helped anyway. XB *snrk* well, good luck to you
with that bf business. I got lucky and the guy just dropped off a rather amusing and friendly gift and
it wasn't romantic in the least. *patpat* I guess that's what I feel too, *snrk* commitment is evil XPPP.
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| Answer me this. | Sunday, December 29, 2002 |
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6:39 pm
Okay, what would you do if you think some guy(or girl) likes you and you're sure you don't like them back?
=9_9;; This happened to me last year and of course I told them right away that I wasn't the dating
type, yadda yadda.... =o_o= oh... now that I think about it it happened in 8th grade too =^^;;; huh.
Well so now I think it's happening for the third time and really I'm starting to wonder if it's me or them =o,o;;
Y'know? Lol, I guess I'd just rather look than actually get involved with people, although if someone
wants to be my friend I'm all for it. Well, if it turns out he likes me I guess I'll pull the usual
response. =@_@;; lol, I just hope he understands where I'm coming from.
In other news, I had a dream and part of it was rather bizarre (as dreams usually are =9_9=). It's the
only part I remember but I was at my old elemetry school and we were on the playground (we as in me and
who ever else was with me, cause I don't remember who, I just know there was more than me). I guess I was
with the guy that I met at my summer art job thing. =o_o= Anyway, he lead me over to the front of the
school cause he wanted to introduce me to a relative (cousin? brother?). And as he says that the guy who plays Frodo
(I know his real name but not how to spell it =^^;;) walks up (in casual wear) and yeah, that's the guy's cousin-or-brother. =o_o= Yep, and I remember somehow
in the dream they really did look alike. I think it was the eyes. So really, it's not that bizarre,
but I haven't thought about my summer job recently at all so where'd Vlad come from? (yah, Vlad was
the name of the guy from the summer job.) Volva, his nickname was Volva I think =9_9=.... Anyway, that's
the part I remember best. Meh =o_o=.
K, getting on with the pics already. First up, a scribble I did for del.
She was stuck at her uncles(?) with nothing to do so I drew that for her. *snrk* I like drawing Rellik
all smiley, cause he's usually all gloom and doom and such.
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| One down! Four to go! | Friday, December 27, 2002 |
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3:47 am
Spike: >P lol, I shall persist anyway, the idea is something I really wanna do. I just need to
figure out the right perspective to use.. *pokee* XB But I'm glad you're happy that I post pics and
stuff. Although my comment boxes could use some more company >D *nudge nudge, bricked*
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| I should make myself more useful | Thursday, December 26, 2002 |
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2:46 pm
Ahn, yah, just got done looking at kitteh's updates. Hou, she has insane fun with del *roll* it's so
amusing I laugh. *roll* And really, Kitteh has the craziest art and cging skills and stuff =o_o=
GO SEE. Hm hm, looking at her site makes me wanna work on mine
again, which I really really should do, even if I don't have tons of CGs to put on it. Lol, it's not
like I MUST have a super crazy layout... although that would be nice...hng
One last thing really quick. I wasn't totally idle yesterday and I do have an improved sketchie
of Roo's gift. =@_@= lol, did hers first cause it's KH and really easy to come up with ideas for since
they're procharas. =P only little tiny preview pic, although really it does spoil the pic to bits...
eh. Well hopefully it will look better finished, colored, and close up, or else I'll be sad.
*jabs Spikey* you know, Guy is REALLY hard to draw =o_o;;;
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| teenage get-togethers are beyond me | Monday, December 23, 2002 |
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3:00 am (next day)
12:56 pm
Kitteh: *hugglelum on yuu* lol, your nearly always first to comment on my entries.
Del: XB muhar, glad you like the doodley, but there shall be more in store for you yet (hopefully yet
will be soon =@_@;;;). =B Don't worry too much about the b-day pic. lol, though if you need some
insperation as to what to draw or if you need to ask questions about stuff go right ahead =3.
Ash: XD WAI! Thanks very much for the giftie! XB lol, it's rare
for me to get gifts and such from people I don't really get to talk to all that often. =B lol, btw I've
buddied your screenname so you should probably be able to contact me now if I'm on (sn: Mangacat). And the oC
problem is with my dad's firewall, not the version of oC. I've had oC a while now and know most of it's workings.
=@_@;; lol, trust me, I'm doing as much as I can to make it work again. Lol, this pic begs for a return gift =^_^=
and I was just hit by insperation!
=@_@;; lol, a pity that I'm more likely to move on moments of insperation than on stuff that's
all nice and planned out. =@0@= I swear, I should make myself work a little harder, really. *goes off
to draw*
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| WINTER BREAK, HUZZAAAAH! | Friday, December 20, 2002 |
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7:13 pm
The snow here has turned to rain =o_o;;; and it really felt like spring for a couple days. =B The
rain came with lovely thunder and lightening though. It was loud and bright! It doesn't look like
it's going to be a very white Christmas here though =;;__;;= Hou, there better be at least one snowday
this year. Lol, my regular Japanese teacher wants a snow week, lol. =P She's preggers but I'm not
suppose to tell anyone *rollroll*. XB Lol, no wonder she's been feeling funny and acting moody lately.
*lum on teacher* I can't believe she sticks around, XB arghersdfs... WHAT ARE WE GONNA DO NEXT YEAR WHEN
WE HAVE NO MORE JAPANESE TEACHER?!!?! =>_>= The school can't even mooch off a Japanese exchange student/teacher
next year either. Stuupid school, hire new teachers already! =>0<= They's gonna kill her baby if they
keep over working her and stuff!
=D Del's lovely Auluzi which I drew of course, but just making sure
you all know he belongs to Del. =B *pet him* yes, I have a sick weakness for slave types *snrk* yar,
I cannae help it. XB I need to figure out what it was that got me into s-ai and yaoi again. *runs about*
=o_o= ASHGDSDf! I wanna draw people's pics! >O Special apology to spike since I've been promising her
a giftie since forever, and I dun care if she say I dun need to do it, I still feel bad and stuff XB *jab
sketchie*
Ash: lol, friendly is good, XB I just feel bad about asking for stuff and all. =B Don't
feel bad, I'm just flustered. Lol, I'm pretty Internet deprived too really. XB but thankfully I have
my daddeh's server *pets it* yum. BTW, sorry for lack of reply for several days =o_o=
Onaka ga suitei da, mooou, fuuud!!!
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| HAPPY B-DAY DEL *is late* | Monday, December 16, 2002 |
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8:46 pm
Kitteh: speaking of gifts, what would you like me to draw you for Christmas? =DDDDD
Ash: =@___@= lol, you may draw whichever chara, I pretty much like them all, although Sora's my
favorite if you're talking about KH..
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| Don't you hate it when luck turns on you? | Friday, December 13, 2002 |
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11:21 pm
6:18 pm
Lol, I guess the day went rather well before I got home today though. I woke up on my own this morning
(like I did just about EVERY DAY OF LAST YEAR =>_>=) and had breakfast and went to school with none
of my hw done.. And then managed today to turn in almost all of the assignments, and the ones I didn't
turn in weren't collected. =o_o;; Talk about weird strokes of luck. Lol, but luck runs out so I really
need to not do that ever again =@_@;;. I also got an A in Geometry today =3 and no hw was assigned. So up
until I got home all was good. Lol... it's Friday the 13th...
Ruaki: XB lol, you put "sama" after my name, it makes me feel funny, I don't deserve a "sama"
yet XB;; or I'll never get used to it, whichever.
Ash: *snrk* XD thanks for the definition *rollroll* oh my. =o__o;; uuuhm, Christmas pressie
for me? ngsdfds... =@_@;; I like Black Cat I guess, or Bleach, or Naruto... You can find out stuff
at Toriyama's World... Lol, if it stresses you don't worry
about it though (stress is bad >P).
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| lookit the glittering new things! | Thursday, December 12, 2002 |
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10:25 pm
Lol, and if you haven't had enough of the layout pic already,
here it is right side up without words and such on it. Lol, I was dumb yesterday and sacrificed
valuable homework time to doodle, and then I started coloring, then an idea for a layout hit me. I couldn't escape XB;;
And then I worked on it more today, and I know I have homework in every subject. =@_@;; lol, I wasted
time on something that wasn't even for someone else (many that I owe stuff to).
Speaking of which, since I can't seem to get my creative juices flowing concerning Christmas gift pics...
I would like to know what you want for Christmas. =@_@;; lol, "you" extends to Kitteh, Del, Roo, and Spike,
Since I talk to them most actively (although "actively" is now debatable).
I'm still trying to draw that pic of Guy for Spike, but it's still in the sketches stage. I plan on
adding a bit of color. =o_o= I also have Del's B-day pic at the sketch stage... but I kinda don't like
it now so I might redo it. =B Roo's pic I also have an idea for, but that hasn't even gotten to a sketch
yet. XB;;; Lol, expect many late presents people!
Ash: OC is almost like a messenger service with drawing capabilities. You dl the prog and run
it off your Internet connection and directly connect to someone elses computer. Lol, the reason why
mine doesn't work (I think) is because I have this screwy situation with my Internet connection... Answer
the question? =^__^= lol, don't worry about not knowing things, I myself am usually pretty clueless
(cause apparently I don't know what S&M means, or at least I'm not familier with seeing whatever it is
written like that if I know what it is...).
Kitteh: =@__@= would you believe me if I said that I check every day in a row since
the earlier update except for on the 10th? *gets bricked* I lum yuu *cling*
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